It's currently 3:13am, which means it's Wednesday, which means we're about midway through the 3rd week back. Which is completely insane - it feels like the first week, then the second, and now the third, have pretty much sped by. We're hovering someplace between 3/8ths and half-way through undergrad, and somehow I still feel just as lost as I did when I got here in first year, wide-eyed and curious. Maybe lost isn't the right word - that would imply an origin point to get lost from. Haven't fully found yet, perhaps.
It honestly feels like the more I learn, the less I know.
But maybe that's okay. Maybe that's good. Maybe that's necessary.
Regardless of anything else, I know I want to keep on learning, keep on growing... and maybe that's enough. For now, anyway.
We ordered late night (read: early morning) delivery for the first time in 2012, justifying it as "belated Chinese New Year" food, reminiscent of this time last year. Some days, it's still hard to believe that it's been a year and a half already. 2010 was a pretty crazy year. 2011 was even crazier.
But on New Years Eve, I found myself wondering what exactly happened those two years. I mean, sure, there are major happenings that really jump out - but beyond that, everything seems to blur together. 2012, I want to document,
To quote Odysseus from Troy:
"Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And so we ask ourselves: will our actions echo across the centuries? Will strangers hear our names long after we are gone, and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?"I hope so.
"It honestly feels like the more I learn, the less I know."
ReplyDeleteMe too, most definitely. I don't feel like I know anything anymore and I am encroaching ever closer on the completion of my undergrad degree.
Although, my favorite teacher of all time once told me that this is good. It is the fact that people like us admit how little we actually know, but have inquisitive natures are what drive change in the world.
(Oh, P.S. I added you to my Blogroll. I'd like to keep in touch!)